There comes a time in any journey, when the traveler begins thinking of home. In J.R.R. Tolkien’s
The Lord of the Rings, for example (and please indulge me), home beckons Frodo Baggins and Samwise Gamgee throughout their uncertain quest, but always serves as their ultimate destination, providing clarity and a sense of purpose.
I often relate my own adventures to that of Tolkien’s
The Lord of the Rings for this reason, and not because I have a similar epic task bequeathed upon me—to destroy the evil embodied by the Ring of Power thereby saving humanity.
Our heroes often reflect on their separation from home. Sam, in a memorable exchange in the film version of
The Fellowship of the Ring, remarks to Frodo after first leaving the Shire, “If I take one more step it’ll be the farthest away from home I’ve ever been.” Our friends are always mindful of their distance from home.
They also long to return. Sam, throughout the journey, brings Frodo out of deep and dark thoughts, with memories of home. Sam never loses sight of the company’s ultimate task—to destroy the Ring, and to return home. Frodo, on the other hand, his mind clouded by the power of the Ring, comes to a realization that home might not be their final destination. Upon leaving the valley in the Shire where he has lived his entire life, Frodo comments quietly, “I wonder if I shall ever look down into that valley again.”
In my own travels, home has always been the ultimate destination. No matter where I have traveled on my own ‘epic’ journeys in the past, whether on a service trip to El Salvador, trail-maintenance along the Appalachian Trail in Tennessee, a ROTC Leadership Training Course in Fort Knox, Kentucky, and most recently (and for the longest stint yet), a Fulbright research grant in Morocco, I have always endeavored to get there, and come back.
Although, either through choice or fate, some travelers will not arrive at the same ultimate end—home. I have met quite a few people this past year who have left home, without a plan to head back. Migrants from sub-Saharan Africa, who have made it to Morocco, will eventually attempt to start anew in Europe. Their experience is akin to the migrants from Mexico, Central and South America, making their way to the United States. Peoples have made similar journeys throughout the course of history.
The Mother of Exiles in Emma Lazarus’ “The New Colossus” cries, “Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free, the wretched refuse of your teeming shore.” The huddled masses depart from their homes, but do not forsake them—their memories and traditions are reborn in the United States of America.
Some have made traveling an end in and of itself. And some still, like Frodo and Sam, must leave their respective roads to fate.
The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with weary feet,
Until it joins some larger way,
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.
But whether or not one chooses home as the ultimate end or not, there is something special about the first step backward. A feeling that overcomes the traveler, knowing that no longer will she look ahead, but down the road just traveled. After smoke and ash have cleared, after completing objectives (or not), and after countless miles in the opposite direction, one thinks, “Home.”
I have chosen the title of “Going Home beta” for this blog because I want to channel this feeling and understanding in my writing. That we all have a home, and at home, we serve a purpose to our family, our friends, and our community. “Beta,” not necessarily because I am testing this theory, but because the real test comes when we finally return home, to face what we have left behind, and to begin again where we left off.
The English Jesuit, poet, and martyr, Robert Southwell writes in “I dye alive,” “Not where I breathe, but where I love, I live.” This past year, for one, has given me the clarity to know where I call home. Where I love. And where I live.